I Guess I’m Single Again

Manfriend and I ended our relationship last night. This makes me sad, very sad. I thought I finally found someone that understood how chaotic my life is because theirs is just as crazy. This ended up being the downfall.

Now I have to explain to my children why someone they know made mommy happy is gone. I don’t like this. This isn’t fair to them. However, this is life.

I keep wondering why things like this happen to me. Did I do something wrong? Is my karma that fucked up that I will never get to be with someone that loves me? I don’t think it is. I like to think I’m a good person. Maybe I’m delusional.

I guess I can come out of this knowing that life sucks. Being a person with feelings sucks. I’m a strong person and will always bounce back, that’s what I do. That’s who I’ve become. I’m just tired of being strong.